It’s Midnight, the in-between hour and I can’t
shake the feeling that I’m being pulled in two separate directions. A lot has
changed in my life during the last few months. Although the many changes that have
occurred in my external world have hardened me to the point where I yearn for
my naivety, it’s the gradual change manifesting within me that is so perplexing.
Don’t worry, I’m not developing psychopathic tendencies or anything.
shake the feeling that I’m being pulled in two separate directions. A lot has
changed in my life during the last few months. Although the many changes that have
occurred in my external world have hardened me to the point where I yearn for
my naivety, it’s the gradual change manifesting within me that is so perplexing.
Don’t worry, I’m not developing psychopathic tendencies or anything.
But, I do believe
I’m at a crossroads or rather approaching one and I fear that I will
be forced to make a decision that will not only forever change the course of my life but the lives of those closest to me.
Sounds ominous, I know. Mind you, it’s just a feeling but like
clockwork, it has been continuously ticking and the inevitability of its
arrival leaves me breathless. Maybe I’m being a bit theatrical but my mind is
racing a mile a minute and I’m scribbling down the remnants of what I perceive
as coherent on this blog post. This is me, rambling at midnight — filled with
apprehensions about what lies ahead.
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